Thursday, March 25, 2010

Need some new recipes!

Ok...I'm back from all of my traveling:)

It was fun but now I've got to hit the gym and get back on my eating track. So hard to get out of a routine and back into one again. I'm going to start back at the gym tomorrow...and hit the grocery store after I get my paycheck.

The good news...I didn't gain any weight, I've just maintained it.
But I'm ready to start losing again.

However.....for awhile I was stuck in a food rut. I felt like I was eating the same thing every day and it got boring.

So....I need some new recipes! Please post some so everyone can get in on the fun!!

Just a quick update for now..I'll post more later!

Love.
Morgan

Tuesday, March 9, 2010

Back in the Saddle Again

Well...I'm done making excuses. Life has been busy. Crazy.
I've been sick and injured.
I've been on an emotional roller coaster at times.
I've been on trips out of town and sampled different foods.

But...when does life ever really slow down, ya know? When does it become convenient?

I had really fallen off the wagon with my diet and exercise. And yesterday, I realized....."you are about to find yourself right back where you started, Morgan." I haven't weighed myself yet today, but I'd venture to say I've put a few pounds back on during my break.

Yesterday someone said something to me that really lit a fire under me. I'm going to refrain from typing it here because that person will probably read this and not even realize their comment had the effect it did. But lets just say it gave me JUST the motivation I needed. I immediately went to the gym and got a 6 month membership. And then went across the street and loaded my cart with fruit, veggies, and whole grain bread.

I had two different friends tell me that I wouldn't get up this morning and go to the gym before work. (I don't think they really thought that I wouldn't, but both of them know me well enough to know that if they tell me I WON'T do something, it only fuels me to make sure I do it to prove them wrong).

So..I was at the gym at 6:45 AM. Went home, showered, had breakfast and was at work by 8:45.

I really like having my work out done and out of the way.

So...here's to a new day. A new start. A re-do. Sometimes everyday feels like a re-do....but ya know? It's hard. There will be times when you fall of the wagon, but every day is a new day. Get back on it and keep rockin!

Now, I am going to be really good because next week I'm going to Savannah, and those who know me, know there there will be at least one chicken bowl in my future. AKA my favorite meal ever. But a friend is going with me and I plan on doing "a lot" of walking playing tour guide. Who wouldn't want to walk around a city as beautiful as Savannah?

I'm in a Beth Moore Bible study at church on her new book , "So Long Insecurity"..and I HIGHLY HIGHLY Recommend this book to ANY and EVERY woman. Because we ALL struggle with insecurities.  One thing I came to realize through the readings this week was that one of my "root" issues is pride. Through some digging into my thoughts, it hit me that because of my weight, I developed a pride problem. Now...that may seem like an oxymoron....but really.....I was trying to overcompensate by being the best at other things. I was never in a club that I didn't hold some sort of office in. When I try a new skill I want to be the best. I've seen this even as recently as this week, trying to compete in stupid things with people I love just to hold the "title". 

Here is a little snippet or two from the book that really hit me between the eyes:

"We're not the only women in our men's lives, and that hurts our pride.
We're not the most gifted people alive, and that hurts our pride.
We're not the first choice every time, and that hurts our pride.
We're not someone's favorite, and that hurts our pride.
We can't do everything ourselves, and that hurts our pride.
We're not somebody else's top priority, and that hurts our pride.
We don't feel special, and that hurts our pride.
We don't get the promotion, and that hurts our pride.
We don't win the fight, and that hurts our pride.
We're not paid what we're worth, and that hurts our pride.
We're not paid at all, and that REALLY hurts our pride."

"If we can't be the most attractive, at least we can be the best at something.
And if we can't be the best at something, we can at least be the hardest working.
And if we can't be the hardest working, we can at least be the most congenial.
And if we can't be the most congenial, we can at least be the most noticeable.
And if we can't be the most noticeable, we can at least be the most religious.
And if we can't be the most religious, we can at least be the most exhausted."

Those two excerpts really sum up my life. And I AM exhausted.

I'm spending time reflecting and letting those things just sit in my soul for a little bit.
I never thought of myself as a prideful person until now.
I'm working on asking the Lord to humble me and not think more highly than I ought.
It's almost embarrassing, but I think if I can get a handle on this...it will affect every area of my life because it's causing me to be so insecure in every other area. I'm a pretty independent person. I can be downright bossy when I need to be....but I'm starting to think it's a defense mechanism.

Anyway...enough rambling.  Just a little window into my soul and not just the scale.

The pic on here is from church picture day. I figure since I rarely wear makeup and subject my "Work out" pics to you, I can least show you that I can in fact clean up ok lol

Love to you all.
Morgan